Posting my feelings and thoughts to this blog!

I am really very tired d...
I am very mad at myself...
I am angry that I'm born to this world...
I am selfish...
I am frustrated...
I am easily distracted...
I am lazy...
I am stupid...
I am probably the world's most unwanted person...
I am unhappy...
I hate myself...

However..........

I wish to have a shoulder to cry on...
I wish to reborn again and start a whole new life...
I wish to have what I want...
I wish that there is someone that understand and know what I'm thinking...
I wish that I do not have to say every word out just to get what I want...
I wish that there are more people to support me...
I wish that I did not fall in the beginning...
I wish that I am as strong as I think I am...
I wish that I do not have to serve everyone...
I wish that I do not have to layan the people that I don't wana layan wan...
I wish that I had a good beginning, so that I won't have a bad/sad ending...
I wish that I can have better things than what I'm having now...
I wish that I have more air to breath...

But somehow..........

I am grateful that I am able to see the world...
I am grateful that I am able to have feelings...
I am grateful to have senses...
I am grateful that I have passed through the tough times...
I am grateful that I am able to learn things through hard times...
I am grateful that I am still young...
I am grateful that I have dreams...

No matter how..........

I am a human...
I have a family...
I have friends...
I am Tan Yan Ling~

Quote of the day.

"Laugh out loud. Cry in the rain. Love with all your heart and soul. Get hurt. Tell the truth. Go crazy. But never forget that you only get one shot. One shot at this day, one shot at this minute. One shot at this age. One shot at life. So make ...sure your life is one you will enjoy watching in your final moments." ~Anna Floyd~

My Raya holiday.

First of all,Selamat Hari Raya...!!(I noe its too late, but im still on my Raya HOLIDAY mode)

Secondly, I went to JB this whole week and came back just today!! What i can just say is that it was really enjoyed it!! I have enjoyed every moment of it during my stay at JB. Well, it was all about food, fun and relax.

Lastly, I came back as a P-I-G! hehe~

-Here are the things that i did at JB:-

1. Went to zoo...haha!

2. Went to the famous Kluang railway kopitiam!!! (Its a MUST GO place and their coffee and toast bread is a MUST TRY!)

3. Had LOOOOADS of yummy foods everyday.....

4. Met Nicole!!

Nicole~!! xoxoxo
Their famous coffee~Their famous toast bread.(taste even better than Old Towns')

Full House@Ara Damansara

Since today was a public holiday. So me, JieJie and Penny decided to go to Full House. It is located at Ara Damansara, Nui Zhe Xui. ^^.

It took us around 2 hours to reach~yea~2 f***king hours!!!! damn noob la 3 of us~got GPS oso no use...swt =="~ Keep on turning to the wrong way....But, in the end, we still made it! Haha~!!
The moment we step in Full House, it was reli full of so-called 'gu dong'(old stuff)~the phone, the car, the deco,etc...everthing was reli classic+cute. Hehe~~
Hmm....Oh well. Im quite tired now. Had two 'active' days in one row...Go here go there...haha...So i think i'll leave it to the pics to tell the rest of it...Goodnight+Bye~

xoxo.

Even their menu is so cute~!^^

Taman Pertanian Bukit Cahaya

Yesterday(Sunday) went to Taman Pertanian Bukit Cahaya~^^~
Went there with Vinnie, my Miss and Shu Ern.

At first my Miss said that she noes the way wan, but then, she missed 1 turning.Haiz...Miss a Miss....haha...so luckily i brought along my dad's GPS. Haha...Although got GPS, but oso went a few wrong turnings...how noob! ==" reli 'zebra' la all of us....but...at least we did reach to our destination in the end~Kaka~So...Hooray for us~!!! *claps*

We reached at about 9++am (im not gonna tell u guys how long it took us to reach there, wana guess den guess la, haha) The enterence fee was RM3/person while the rental fees for the bicycles depends on whether you choose the new ones or the old ones~(TIPS: Choose the NEW ones!!) The new ones was RM5/hour while the old ones are RM3. The price was only RM2 difference. But safety first! The old bikes were reli 'chap balang'. Some of the breaks weren't working well too. So better take new ones. ^^.

So. We started cycling. Passed by and stopped at alot of beautiful places and scenary. The padi field, animal farm, orchird farm, etc...

Well, in short, i reli enjoyed it although it was tiring.^^.

End the day with an ice cream~!=)

P/S: Its open from 8.30am to 4.30pm. Go early to avoid dissapointment. =)

Last day of sem break~

Today would be my last night for my 2 weeks of sem break (quite sad)~

It is also my last night for not sleeping throughout whole night~

Oh ya~! Before i forgot...HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY to Malaysia and everyone~! Hehe...

Now is 6:20am. Im thinking of what am i gonna do today as today would be my last day of sem break~

I wana enjoy my holiday till the very last day...!!!

So, what am i gonna do??? Hmmmm.........

Maybe later go for breakfast with my lou yao.

Then go to sports club with dad(my dad said he wana go there swimming) So, maybe i'll go for badminton...long time din play badminton d...wana sweat out all my 'fats'~ Haha....

I reli pigged out during my holiday....Plus with the ramadan around. Oh gosh. Everywhere oso got those ramadan night market...I nearly went to each of it which i saw~

But then, for once in a verrryyy long time...i actually didn't care how much i ate or how fat i will become~Hehe*claps*~ I actually do feel proud of myself though~

But, i need to promiss myself that i will stop once i've started my new sem(hope i will bear this in mind and stick to it!)

So, that means, today will be my last day to become a pig. I must utilize this day fully...!! *tsk tsk*

Well ok folks. Gtg. I gotta think what am i gonna do for the rest of my last day of holiday~

xoxo.

Frustruation, Sadness and Dilemma, Fullstop.

Im really in a dilemma rite now...

Next week gonna start new semester ady...and i still duno whether to choose mass com or continue my marketing. Im already in degree. But, im starting to hesitate whether i hv made the rite choice.

Today, my dad suddenly told me not to change course. He knows tat my interest is actuali towards mass com wan~but he said that today's world or even in the future, marketing is important to any industry. Although what he says is true. But still. Mass com is my interest. However, when i think carefully and ask myself, mass com does not have much to contribute to the industry, but marketing, its vice verse. My dad said that if i study marketing, even though if i graduated, i still can go into mass com industry. The reason im in Uni is to get that piece of 'golden ticket'. And that precious piece of paper that u hold is to tell everone that ur a graduate. Thats all. Fullstop. The real challenge is when u start ur working life. And at the age of 55, that is when ur gonna graduate.

I noe that my dad would want to give the best to his daughter.

He noes what would be the best job for the business industry...

He noes what would be the best job that would lead to a good future,(in terms of income, contibution, what kind of people would employees seek for and so fouth...)

He is the person that has overcome all the ups and downs in life...

He has gone through and faced many kinds of problems, situations, challenges, etc.........

Therefore, he noes what's best...

But doesn't people live within their interests??

Or.....

they live within the society of where they could contribute and benefit the most??

So, interest or contribution and benefits??

Mass com or Marketing??
Haiz......

Frustruation, sadness and dilemma, all in one. Fullstop.