你不是真正的快樂~+.+~

人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色 你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了 你已經決定了 你已經決定了 你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著 而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了 越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割 你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色 你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼 這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了 當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇 於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著 你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色 你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼 你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合 我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河 難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著 你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色 為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢 能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著

This few days kinda addicted to this song~~
From Mayday(5YueTian)...
This song reli gt 'feel'...
Can 'feel' the meaning of this song...
Human beings r like tat...
Gt sadness and hapiness and the ups and downs of life...
Bt no matter hw...
"xiao xiao de wei xiao ye ke yi dai guo da da de bei shang~^^ "

Updating My Life...

Long time din write blog d le~~
Final exam coming soon...so bz...somemore hv to balance up my social life~~ For me,social life is vry important,cant live without it-(who dosen't)~~
My frnz and my college life de timing oso nt same somemore...i study,they sem break..they sem break,i study...all opossite de~~TT...
So although wan exam d...hv to study...bt i still 'gak ngang' wan go out...somemore dun1 study...haiz...

Tat say went out with GalGalz...at last can c one of the GalGal,AGal(KeiKei) boyfriend...^^...they 2gether so long d...bt din reli 'zan zheng gai xiu' b4...
The first time saw them 2gether...reli felt like they reli meant to be 2gether...so 'chan'..can giv 'zui jia qing lv' award to them d~~haha
Seeing them 2gether makes me oso wan to gt a bf oso...kaka...*ps..again daydream d*~~LOL...i mean..its jz oni some kind of 'funi urge' i hv at tat time...hehe...

Another thing is my other Gal...hers is a diff case...
Well,let me ask u guys 1st..when going out...should it be like 'if gt bf around,den frnz shouldn't be around...or vice verse..'??
This actuali is wat one of my Gal bf said to her...b4 v went out 2gether...
I kinda feel sad for her oso..to hv a bf saying tat to her..well....she was sad too...
Although me and AGal gt chat bout it...bt ending up nt hving any conclusion on it...bcz v noe vry well on wat kind of guy is her bf is...so,to nt hurt her...beter nt say anymore...
Bt stil.......i can feel tat she's still vry sad and dissapointed bout it...cz ltr...she told me tat its time 4 her to b independant and nt rely/'too appreciate' her bf...
Haiz...all i can say to her is...
"YenYen gal: Don't think so much...bt no matter how...in d end is ur decision...ur thinking...ur wants and needs...wat/how u feel...nth matters bt U,URSELF!"....From Ling...^^

Accident day~~~T.T

2day...is such an unlucky day..cz...kena involved in car accident...haiz...

How it happened......:

Dis morning, i was going to my piano teacher house for piano lesson, den on da way, one lorry trailer hit my car around da roundabout der...after he hit...den he jz run away!! Bt luckily i rmbed his car plate number...

After about a minute, gt two cars jz stop by and help me...they lent me their phone to call my daddy(cz my phone no credit jor..haiz..malang...you gou suer de~~)...the car was actuali in da up da roundabout and in da longkang jo...so they cant reli do anything...bt they jz at der 'an wei wo'...so..i'm reli thankfull for them...bt hor,ltr gt 1 lorry came to me and gave me a paper...it seems tat he oso gt copy down da trailer's car number which knocked me~~i felt vry touched tat at least i noe tat there is actuali some1 who is willing to help me get 'something' involving the accident...

So...after my daddy came, lucky he noe da insurance company and 'che chang' company de boss...so the matter is more easier to solve...^^...bt da most glad thing is...the moment that i called him...all he jz asked is am i hurt~~he didn't even asked bout da car...~~so, "Daddy,I LOVE U~~"

2day is oso my 1st time went to a police station,to do report...all da while i tot police station is scary de...bt..it seems tat its nt at all...^^...

This incident reli left me a 'scar' in my life...gt 'yin ying' d~~...*cry*TTTT~~~*speeceless*~~~Kena toll lor~~

*Dun laugh!*

Update........

Yesterday after went out for dinner wif all da GalGal,v decided to go watch midnite movie de...mana tau on da way kena tahan by polis! WTF!!! They asked us to give them our IC den later duno they do wat,copy our IC numbers...When v asked da polis officers y wan tahan us,somemore wan copy it down...they said tat its their job to do so...WTH!!! Bullshit de answer!!!
Wan c ma c la...y wan copy it down...stupid polis..waste out time der wait...somemore take so long to copy...duno wan check wat! G2H ba! HMPH!!!

After tat,v went sunway,watch movie...when reach der...so many ppl!!! Actuali wan watch "duno wat......Stranger" de movie...bt full jor!! Haiz...den ma change to watch House Bunny lo....quite nice aso de~~~^^

Later after movie,went home...can't slp...ma watch drama lo...dis few days duno wat happen to me...start to addicted to all these dramas,reli wan 'siao' liao leh~~~haiz...bt i promiz myself...after finished watching da dramas i'm watching nw...muz start study le!!

Dec is final exam...although it seems like still long time,bt time is like nt enuf 4 me,it goes by so fast. Everday wake up from my slp den its a new day already...time jz goes by jz like tat...without me realizing tat i'm running out of time ady...assignments>test>den when da day reach,its final liao...so muz reli get my brain working d...

K la...tats all d..will update it next time...^^

-EnDz-

*With all GalGalz*...^^...

Piano...PASSED!^^

Yeah~~!! 2day was such a happy day!!
My piano teacher called in the evening,telling me that I've passed my piano practical exam!! Yeah!!! The momment I heard this news, I didn't quite believe until she told me again...I have PASSED!!! WooHoo!!! But I still can't belive it myself...actuali I was already ready to hear the news that I've failed,I'm so ready to hear that bad news a long time,even right after I've finished my exam...but God was so gud to me...hehe...Passed d! Passed d!!! Yeah!!

A boring day@@

Today was quiet a boring day...nth to do...

I woke up at 3pm,and when I was taking my bath,I accidentally broke my fingernail!!*cry~TT* It broke at the middle,where its 'sticking' with the flesh...TTTT...reli hurts...But I cut it off...luckily it did not bleed(thank God)*amen*^^...

Later in the day,got mood to play piano,its been a few months I have not touched my piano(wan fat mou jor~~)haha....

Here's a video that I played...hope u all will like it!

Song title:Marriage D'Amour(Meng Zhong De Hun Li)^^

---Life for 3 days---

Here's my life for this few days:^^

`Monday---At last...my dad let me drive to college le...^^yeah...well the advantage of it is that I could go home anytime or even anywhere I want..ngek ngek...but surely..I've got to pay the parking fees..haiz...really wana 'pok kai' liao la...

`Tuesday---Felt so moody,sad,frastruated...felt like wana cry da whole day..duno why...haiz...something was totally wrong about me...but I can't figure it out...
That day was also the Econs test2 day...haiz..duno whether I should say I've done badly or worst, or better than da previous test. All i can say is HOPE I can get good results,as I didn't did well in the previous test,cz it would affect my final exam results...oh god...thats also another thing that I'm worried about now...its jz 2 more weeks away till the finals...OMG! I've never done any preparation,not a single subject!
When I went home that day...there's tear coming out frm my god damn eyes! and I duno why...SHIT ME! That day was just sad and moody day~~~@@ But in the end,a smile solves it all....haha...(crazy and silly me) So guys..just put a smile when you have that sad face!Hehe......

`Wednesday(Today)---2moro is Maths test!!! ARGH!!! Hate that subject...my weakest subject ever!! But what to do...still have to study...haiz...I really need to score 2moro's paper...if not...I won't have a garauntee to pass in dis subject...and if I failed,I would have to retake it next semester...TT...shit,shit shit!! Anyway,I'll just try and do my best...

~~~Us against the world~~~

I'm hesitating now...I don't know what I want anymore...
Thinking back...I was once an ambitious person...I would do anything to reach my target...
But now...everything seems to be falling apart...I'm not that person who I once was...

Yesterday..after hanging out with my frns...I came home at 11pm..feeling tired...I listened to this song called 'Us Against The World' by Westlife...It was such a nice song...I loved it so much...Every words and the lyrics in the song was vry meaningful...I start to wonder...Is that what I want?? Maybe someone out there will be willing to face the whole world with me...jz me and him...maybe the pieces of my life that have been fallen apart for sometime will be mend...I want someone to help me find my true self(as I'm quite a blur person)...
I don't know where I am now...but I hope that someone could lead me...
As for now...I'm jz waiting for that someone......

=...MaThs aGAin...=@@

Today...Maths...haiz...da lecturer was teaching a topic bout arithmatic...arrgghhh!!..Tat was a topic tat i've learnt in from 5 add maths!!! Hate tat subject!! At tat time...i came to some ques tat i duno how to do...reli felt like crying d...bt manage to hold on to it...bt den...da lecturer gave out or test 2 paper...my result was damn bad...!! Tat was da moment tat my tears started to roll down to my cheeks...argh...y i cant hold on to it(vry shi bai la...haiz..)..reli reli sad la..T.T...bt lucky no1 saw it..accept my 'jiejie' lor...she say if i duno den i should ask...actuali after hearing tat..i somemore wana cry leh~~bt wat she say aso correct de...bt my maths all the while aso nt gud de...and i reli dun like maths...argh...!! I'm starting to wonder whether i've choose da wrong course d...gt abit regret aso..bt wat to do...no point d..i noe tat for nw...all i can do is to try my best...

My Bloggie~~

Well...actually i had this bloggieee account quite a long time ady...but just didn't reli update it...since that so many of my frns are having their own blogs now...so mayb i'll jz be part of the gang...^^... I've written bloggies b4...in various webs, including dis 1...but I've deleted the previous ones and decided to start all over again (so for those who got to know me recently wouldn't know any of my past secrets...hehe...)
For those who don't know me...here are a very short intro about me...My name is Yan Ling...but frnz call me Ling Ling or simply jz Ling...I'm 18 years old and studying in INTI College Subang Jaya(promoting my college...XD)..........
Ermmm.....well...i think tat's all...i'll try to update it more often(hopefully la...haha)...
~~~Till next time~~~