Posting my feelings and thoughts to this blog!

I am really very tired d...
I am very mad at myself...
I am angry that I'm born to this world...
I am selfish...
I am frustrated...
I am easily distracted...
I am lazy...
I am stupid...
I am probably the world's most unwanted person...
I am unhappy...
I hate myself...

However..........

I wish to have a shoulder to cry on...
I wish to reborn again and start a whole new life...
I wish to have what I want...
I wish that there is someone that understand and know what I'm thinking...
I wish that I do not have to say every word out just to get what I want...
I wish that there are more people to support me...
I wish that I did not fall in the beginning...
I wish that I am as strong as I think I am...
I wish that I do not have to serve everyone...
I wish that I do not have to layan the people that I don't wana layan wan...
I wish that I had a good beginning, so that I won't have a bad/sad ending...
I wish that I can have better things than what I'm having now...
I wish that I have more air to breath...

But somehow..........

I am grateful that I am able to see the world...
I am grateful that I am able to have feelings...
I am grateful to have senses...
I am grateful that I have passed through the tough times...
I am grateful that I am able to learn things through hard times...
I am grateful that I am still young...
I am grateful that I have dreams...

No matter how..........

I am a human...
I have a family...
I have friends...
I am Tan Yan Ling~